Now Serving the
Lord Instead of an Organization
I was reared in a Christian household, my mother made sure I got to Sunday
school every week from an age earlier than I can remember. I was active in Cub
Scouts, Boy Scouts, sang in the church choir, played on the church basketball
team. I participated in several church plays, attended church summer camp, I was
involved in the church youth group. The church I attended had a restaurant booth
at the Ohio State Fair and I worked there every year I attended that church. I
was very active in the church -- but I never took the time read the Bible
in-depth or develop a personal relationship with the Lord.
After high school I attended Ohio State University and began to associate with a
small group of Christians on campus. As I listened to them talk about their
faith and quote Scripture from memory I realized how little I knew about the
Bible. Shortly after being made aware of my limited Bible knowledge I came in
contact with Jehovah’s Witnesses and they offered me a free home Bible study.
This seemed to be just what I needed so I accepted and in 1961 I began studying
with Jehovah's Witnesses. They called our study a Bible study but we never
really studied the Bible. We studied one of their publications with questions
printed at the end of every paragraph designed to get their teachings across.
Every three or four paragraphs we would go to the Bible and read a Scripture to
prove the point being made. Before long it seemed like they had all the answers.
Of course it was easy for them to have all the answers they were asking all the
questions. At first the subjects studied were easy for all to agree on, but
gradually they got into their doctrine. By the time they got to their doctrine
they made the idea of reading two or three paragraphs about their teachings in
their publication and lifting scriptures out of context to prove their point
seem like the accepted way of Bible study. We were using the New World
Translation Jehovah’s Witnesses own translation of the Bible, translated
completely at Watchtower headquarters without the aid of a single Greek scholar.
They claimed this was the most accurate translation available, but they had
actually altered many Scriptures to fit their teachings.
A word of warning here, any time someone presents an idea then goes to the Bible
with a scripture from one place then another somewhere else, BE VERY AWARE. The
Lord preserved the Bible for us to read, meditate over and allow the Holy Sprit
to reveal the wonderful truths to us. Anyone who uses the Bible to prove a
preconceived idea by playing Bible hopscotch is misusing God’s Word.
Soon I completed the two required Watchtower publications and in 1964 I
officially became a Jehovah’s Witness. I married a beautiful and wonderful young
Witness in 1963 and by 1966 we had 2 children and our lives became very busy.
(As of this writing we have spent 43 wonderful years together, have 4 children
and 13 grandchildren). In time I became a Ministerial Servant, the equivalent of
a Deacon in some churches, while still a Ministerial Servant I became a book
study conductor (small group leader) and later I was appointed as an Elder in
our local congregation.
The Watchtower Bible and Tract Society was really pushing the idea that the end
was coming in 1975 in their teachings at the congregation meetings and at the
conventions. They used that carrot constantly. In early 1975 I quit my fulltime
job, took my retirement savings I had at the time, found part-time work and
became a full time pioneer (a Jehovah's Witnesses who devotes 100 hours a month
to the door to door work). I served as a full time pioneer for 2 years before I
had to return to fulltime work and part-time door to door work for the
Witnesses. This might seem to some to have been an irresponsible act, but I had
a wife and three children I was responsible for. I was so convinced that the end
was coming in 1975 that I wanted to be doing all I could so that we could
survive into the new system as a family.
After 1975 came and went uneventfully the Watchtower Bible and Tract Society
said that the members were guilty of making too much of something the Watchtower
Bible and Tract Society only referred to occasionally. I am sure that those who
became Jehovah's Witnesses after 1975 and those now studying with Jehovah's
Witnesses believe that to be true. I was there. We were constantly warned at our
meetings that the end would be here in 1975. It was always presented as a
certainty never as a probability. Every Jehovah's Witness I knew was convinced
that the New World would be here by October 1975. Those that doubted were
considered apostates. I remember the saying among Jehovah's Witnesses at that
time was “Stay alive till 75”. The Watchtower Bible and Tract Society was of
course very careful about what they put in print.
I served as an Elder for over 20 of my 35 years as a Jehovah’s Witness.
Jehovah’s Witnesses do not have any clergy and the Elders serve as the teachers
in the congregation. For over 17 years I taught one of the main meetings of
Jehovah’s Witnesses, the Theocratic Ministry School. I continued as a book study
conductor and do not remember a time that I was not a book study conductor once
I started. I loved giving the Sunday public lectures, and once a month I
traveled to another Jehovah’s Witness congregation in the central Ohio area to
give a public talk as a guest speaker. I also served on the hospital visitation
committee and sat on countless judicial committees (3 Elders who decide the
guilt or innocence of a Jehovah's Witness who has broken a Watchtower Bible and
Tract Society rule).
For 35 years our family life revolved entirely around what we called “The
Truth”. We thought we were among God’s chosen people.
In 1990 my 95-year-old grandmother came to live with us after an extended
hospital stay, she needed around the clock care. My wife Jean and I began
alternating meetings in order to care for her. Being the Theocratic School
Overseer and a book study conductor I went to our meetings on Tuesday and
Thursday and my wife would attend the Sunday meetings. We also alternated our field
service time on weekends. Before long the other elders began to pressure me
get to all the meetings. Of course this was not possible short of hiring
someone to stay with my grandmother 3 times a week. When their attempts to
pressure me into getting to all the meetings failed they began to pressure me to
give up my assignment as school overseer an assignment I had for the past 17
years. My pleas for help with my assignments fell on deaf ears. Soon I resigned
as a book study conductor, later as school overseer and eventually I resigned my
assignment as an elder.
Without the responsibilities of an elder in the congregation I stayed home to
care for grandma more and more and let my wife go to all of the meetings, she
was after all my grandmother and my responsibility. I found a great deal of joy in the freedom of
staying at home evenings and weekends as it gave me a great deal of time for
personal Bible reading. The more Bible reading I did (without Watchtower
publications to steer my thinking) the more errors I began to see in the
teachings of the Watchtower. Soon I began to doubt that they were the one true
religion as they claimed. I would occasionally attend a meeting but I told God that I would
not go back out in the door to door work unless He showed me very clearly that
that was what I was to do. He never did and I never again went door to door as a Jehovah's
Witness. My grandmother passed away in 1994 but I did not return to the
meetings, I had simply found too many errors in their teachings, past and
From the time I began studying with Jehovah's Witnesses they claimed that the
generation that saw the events of 1914 would be alive when God ushered the New
World. They would use Psalms to show that a generation was 70 or 80 years. Add
80 to 1914 and you get 1994 and the Watchtower Bible and Tract Society had
yet another failed prophecy. In 1995 the Watchtower Bible and Tract Society changed
their view of the term generation. They now claim that they misunderstood the
term generation as used by Jesus when He said, “This generation will not pass
away until the end comes”. They say he meant generation as used when one says
“the generation of Noah’s day”, a general term used to describe a period of time
that could include many generations.
To me it had become obvious the Watchtower Bible and Tract Society was not God’s
channel of communication. In 1999 I wrote a letter to my local congregation and
officially terminated my affiliation with the Jehovah’s Witnesses. I accepted
Christ as my savior shortly after, and I am very pleased to tell you that my
wife and all four of our children have also left the Witnesses and have accepted
Christ as their Savior.
The teachings of the Watchtower Bible and Tract Society are very works oriented,
it is a “work harder work faster” organization. Followers are controlled by
being consistently told they must work harder because the end is so close.
Looking back over those 35 years I do not see how I could have done more as a
Jehovah's Witness and still have provided for my family, and yet there was not
one day that I felt sure of my salvation. I regularly prayed to God to not let
the end come to soon because I was sure I was not doing enough to survive.
Since leaving that organization I have accepted Christ as my savior and I now
know that I am a sinner saved not by my works but by the grace of our Lord and
Savior Jesus Christ.